Everything's Copacetic

I have this dream about who I want to be. I’m not saying I’m not happy with myself now, but I just want more. There are so many places I want to see, loads of people I want to meet, & so many things I want to accomplish, like getting into an university. But for some odd reason, I don’t really believe all of that can happen. I don’t believe in myself & it’s surprising because I never thought of myself as “that type of person”. (My extreme over-analyzing caused this.) Sometimes I sit and think: “I’m not smart enough for college.” or “I’ll never get to do that stuff because of this or that.” It’s sad because I know I can but I won’t believe it. My family think I’m like this awesome super kid who can do, what seems to me, the impossible. But I don’t want to be like that anymore, I want to see myself in the way that everyone else sees me. I don’t want to be asleep all my life, dreaming, I want to actually make my dream my reality. The last thing I want to do is disappoint my loved ones by not “living the dream”. Besides, I refuse to disappoint myself. And I won’t.

LYIN’ IN BED, SHIRTLESS

I look in the mirror and wonder what other people see My pains, my flaws, my insercurities Askin’, what are your feelings about me?

LYIN’ IN BED, SHIRTLESS

Got so much balling up underneath Tangled up all the secrets that I keep Sing of love and make my heart beat

LYIN’ IN BED, SHIRTLESS

I know this feeling can’t be right Holding on to my pillow so tight Holding back the tears with might I hope tonight’s the last night

LYIN’ IN BED, SHIRTLESS

This fight has left me black and blue I’d tell you my problem if I knew I want a love, a love that’s true

LYIN’ IN BED, SHIRTLESS

No expression, no emotion Lost in the middle of the ocean Honestly kept my heart open But now I’m left wishin’ and hopin’

LYIN’ IN BED, SHIRTLESS

Temperature rises like Florida heat The smell of your skin makes my soul leap I never knew I could be so weak With our feelings we play hide-n-seek Look inside and take a peek When you’re done tell me what you see

LYIN’ IN BED, SHIRTLESS

-Yoledyne Joseph :)

berrymamii:

letsjustdisappear:

Walk away like a BOSS

lmfaooooooooooooo, this is the funniest thing i’ve ever seen!

So, it’s the middle of my junior year of high school. And my life, as of now, is pretty good. My days go by smoother than ever and the people around me are getting easier to deal with. God, school, friends, family and relationships; everything seems so right.  Although I’m not completely satisfied, I’ll enjoy this bit of happiness for the time being. (I need a job though, lol.)